Merry Christmas to everyone! 😀
It was the last night with her. Far past midnight. I was driving. I was always the driver. However, it was something I never complained about since it meant we were all together. My eyes were on the road but my mind stayed in the back seat where she was. The windows were down and the evening air felt nice. She kept her head out the window enjoying the rush of air. I wondered what she was thinking of. Was it me? Was it of us? Chances were it wasn’t, but I’ll never know for sure.
We crossed on to the bridge that stretched over the river. No other cars were out. For some time, it felt like we were the only souls out at that late hour. Lonely Night Owls. The water below appeared black, slowly moving as if it were some living abyss waiting to swallow anything that fell to it. The city we were driving to was lit up like a beacon of hope. As though we were driving through hell and almost out. The only real hell, for me, was knowing I was leaving tomorrow.
The radio was going, but I didn’t really hear it. I just felt the wind on my face and arms, smelled the night air which hinted of passing rain, and saw the light among the darkness. I didn’t want to forget that moment, because it’d be one of the last ones I’d have with her. Driving with such an overall beautiful woman in my car. She was a new, albeit brief, chapter in my life. A rare and unique type of woman that you’d never forget once you met. One that warmed the soul once you made that connection.
I didn’t want to leave her…
Searching for Clarity,
Through the White Noise of my Heart.
It’s made all the easier
With these thoughts of You.
Just give me all of your Truth
And I’ll show you a Night
Brightened by Stars.
Give me your Emeralds of Hope,
And I’ll show you the reason
You’ll Stay in Love.
Search for Clarity,
Through all the Lost signals.
I’ll prove to you the Strength
Of One Man’s Real Commitment.
Throughout the years of Wrong Ways,
I’ve endured the same pain
of Stepping Stones,
Thankful that I could at last
Find your Consideration.
Let me pull your heart closer,
It’s already found a Home in Mine.
Let us find Clarity,
Through our Love.
Through sorrow filled gasps of despair,
I breathed in a rancid smell of failure.
It was a constant reminder of us.
Chewed and spit into gutter trash,
I remained a man of broken hopes.
Though my throat was harsh,
drinking in your excuses seemed pleasant enough.
I began to paint a Joker’s smile on my face,
so swallowing this disappointment wouldn’t look too painful.
And I shall fear no evil,
Whether you believed in me or not.
The time for beliefs are over.
I’ll lead myself away from this sorrow
And forget the heartache of your promise.
Discarding these shackles behind me,
I can walk on my own.
I’ll grip my strength
with stumbling fingers,
cursing with mumbling lips,
and find my own Shine
in all of this Darkness.
Leaving me to myself
was a dangerous choice.
I’ve always had the embers to start a fire,
Now this blazing in my chest is unforgiving.
I will use this pain as my weapon,
Sharpened by all of my fallen attempts.
I know I won’t walk with footprints beside me,
But my weapon will clear all the Valleys
that lay ahead.
because when your world crumbles,
it’s hard to stand up,
and the more you try to reach out
the more you realize you’ve hurt others too.
What a pit in the stomach kind of feeling.
I’m sorry. I know you’ll read this.
You should stay away from me,
Monsters tend to attract other Monsters.
There’s a basement below Rock Bottom,
it’s called Purgatory.
A home for some.
I need to wash these things called hands,
I’ve left too many finger prints where they
Leave me to fade.
though Sorrow fills these words,
Truth outlines them.
I’m back from Arizona and getting into the swing of things again. Here’s another Writing exercise for everyone to check out and participate in if they’d like. I’ll be posting an exert from my Horror story soon. Once it’s finished I’ll be sending it to a Short Story Contest which is the reason why I won’t be able to post the full story on here.
Here’s this weeks Writing Exercise:
“Everything would be right”
My cell rang again, but I didn’t answer it. I just smiled and set it to vibrate. I knew it was driving him crazy not knowing what I was doing, not knowing where I was, and with who.
I glanced over at Jake as he drove down the dirt road. He seemed like the opposite of him, simply care free and wild. Maybe that’s what I needed now. Maybe that’s what my heart needed to be.
“How much farther?!” I yelled so he could hear me over the wind since he had taken the top off his Jeep.
“Not much farther Darlin’, just hold on to your pretty self!” He said with wink.
He was very handsome with short brown hair and a defined jawline with stubble.
I couldn’t help but to grin. Everything felt right. My hair was blowing in almost every direction. The sun was out with only minimal clouds to get in the way. I closed my eyes and took it all in. There were no arguments, no fighting, no stressing out, and no tears. Everything was right.
The cell vibrated again as we came to the river. I jumped out of the Jeep leaving my phone behind. The river looked amazing. It sparkled from the reflection of light from the Sun. I could see all the way to the bottom as if it was untouched by mankind. A hidden gift from some water god like Poseysidden or whatever his name was.
“Yea, not many people come down this way so the river stays pretty clear.” Jake said as if reading my thoughts.
“How about a dip?” He said taking off his shirt and boots almost at the same time.
I took my dress off which hid my two-piece swim suit and we swam for hours. I couldn’t remember the last time I had so much fun. Maybe when I was a teeny-bopper? It wasn’t anytime recently.
After the swim we dried off by laying in the sun and talking about college goals and dreams of what we’d do afterwards.
We dressed and walked around near the river. There were only a few trees near by; it was mostly grass and some sandy parts.
“So, what are you gonna do about the guy calling you non-stop?” Jake asked catching me off guard.
“How do you know it’s a guy and not just my parents?” I asked slyly avoiding his emerald eyes.
“Ya woulda picked up or called back by now if it was your parents…Nah…I know it’s a guy, probably wishing he hadn’t screwed up so bad to be ignored by such a beautiful woman as yourself.”
Oh, how silver his tongue could be. He had a deadly combination of looks and smarts.
“Ha, well, too bad for him.” I said continuing to walk until I came to a small dead tree.
“Bad for him, Maybe good for me?” Jake said raising an eyebrow my way.
“Maybe..” I responded as I grabbed the tree and leaned into the wind. I smiled at him as I saw a slow smile of his own overcome his rough face.
Everything would be right.